Angels

I couldn't believe it was happening. I saw the suburban pull out 30 yards in front of me to try and cross a four lane highway with cars traveling at 60 mph. I said to myself I can't believe this is happening I am going to hit him, I am going to hit him, followed by screeching brakes and plowing straight into his plywood sided trailer. I remember screaming, bracing myself for the impact, and then it happened. The smoke of the airbags filled my lungs and I was spinning out of control, only to come to a stop 180 degrees in the other direction in the center lane of traffic with a semi coming straight for me. I have never been so scared in all of my life! I can honestly say I felt the hand of the Lord and of angels watching over me. When I finally realized I was okay I looked over to see the sweetest lady coming toward me to hold my hand and reassure me that everything was going to be okay and that most importantly my baby was okay. I can't even begin to express the gratitude I feel for so many people - complete strangers- coming to my rescue today. It was 2:47 p.m. and we were driving back to Logan after a fun filled lunch with friends for me and play date with Beck's cousins for him. I had just hung up with my sweetheart who had gone to Brigham to play golf with my brother and brother-in-law. I was only a few miles from home and Beck had fallen fast asleep in his car seat.

The part I feel so unsettled about was that I didn't really have a good feeling about traveling over to Brigham today, but I did it anyway... thinking I was just paranoid. I will NEVER ignore that feeling again! I am trying not to play the "what if" game, but I just can't help but think how it might have been different if I would have listened to the Spirit prompting me to not go. I have forever learned my lesson and will always listen to the feeling whether it is the Spirit or just my paranoia!

My eyes well with tears each time I think about the many miracles that happened in my life today! I feel so blessed to have walked away from that experience with very few problems or discomforts. I am amazed at the love that complete strangers from all walks of life showed me today. I feel so blessed that a retired fire fighter happened to witness it all and was one of the first on the scene. She comforted me, treated me for shock, made sure my baby was okay, and continued to monitor my well being. Grateful for those who stepped up to call 911, attend to sweet Beckam, and direct the traffic around the accident. Thankful for the EMT's who were so patient, kind, and thoughtful. The silver lining on such a hard day was watching Beckam explore the ambulance and give one of the EMT's a run for his money. I immediately knew he was okay when I saw him climbing up on the seat and counters, running around the gurney, and trying to escape out the back doors. While I don't usually encourage this type of behavior, it was a very clear indication to me that Beck was okay. It warmed my heart to see this burly fire fighter play with Beck using a stuffed animal and then try to distract him from wreaking havoc in that small space.

Most of all I was overcome with joy when I looked through the ambulance window and saw my sweetheart walking up the side of the road from the Acura. He is truly my angel and I feel blessed beyond words for his unconditional love for Beckam and me. What a blessing he is in my life and I am grateful beyond belief that I get to sit next to him on the couch tonight and know that everything is okay. I feel humbled and forever grateful for our safety, our health, and the gift of angels that are watching over us.